tell me whats right for me.
i will live for myself. i'm broken up. never fixed back again. i thanks for your care and concern. but i hope you dont do them just for the sake of doing. i love you, but dont give me any hopes that will be dashed in minutes.
Walk away, Loved. 8:26:00 PM `
i need some peace.
save me from everything. i'm just faking a smile for the whole day. did anyone realised? i really dont feel like laughing/smiling at all. my mind is going round and round. i cant concentrate on anything. sigh-
school was really boring. i wish i was studying. but~ ): no more disappointing marks meizhen, you can do it. believe in yourself, nothing is impossible.
yeah, tomorrow's lianiee birthday! (:
Walk away, Loved. 8:01:00 PM `
our supposed 18th month.
i miss all my dearest.
BESTIES*
Walk away, Loved. 9:53:00 PM `
i miss besties-
shall update on what i have done yesterday. wake up around 11plus. bath and everything, left home for school. saw baoyu at bus stop. but didnt really talk to her. hahas. i'm shy lah. no lah. course i feel that i look ugly. XD went to school for POA lesson. 1pm-3pm. after lesson, went home, bath again then went kovan mac to meet up with chrystal around 5pm. kenneth leong and varian was there too. we ended up not studying. we were chatting non-stop. LOLS. i saw a pic in varian's phone, i so feel like crying lah. their friend adam walk pass and he ended up chatting with us also. hahas. around 7plus, went heartland walkwalk, adam went to cut hair then the two other guys want go PLCC to meet junjian and watch soccer. like duh. LOLS. but i still went with them. to pei chrystal. (:
after that, around 8plus, i go take bus to gillian's house. around 10plus, take bus go heartland there with gillian, her brother and her brother's friend to meet up with queenie, tou, peixuan, huimin[goodgurl]. hahas. then around 11plus12pm me jiu go take bus home liao.
what can i do to have you again?
Walk away, Loved. 3:25:00 PM `
happy birthday boy. <3
yeah, his birthday. hahas. i'm so lame. argh- hope he enjoyed his day bah. i'm so tired. sigh- my results are so sickening. my socialstudies is like shit. i got only 13/50. wa~ the most saddening one is my emaths lah. i just need 1 more mark to get an A1. people, please kill me man. sigh-
该爱着你，该离开你，还是继续逃避。
Walk away, Loved. 10:11:00 PM `
the feeling of excitement.
i'm having mixed feelings now. i dont know why. sigh- i can suddenly feel very excited but suddenly i will feel very down. argh- schools have been boring. but dont worry people, i will study real hard. (: tomorrow is his birthday. wheets! hahaha. i'm abit crazy. oh well, i failed my geography. english quite alright.
geog - 21/50.
english paper1 and paper2 - 76.5/140.
english paper1 and paper2 - 76.5/140.
Walk away, Loved. 9:16:00 PM `
stab me with the sharpest knife.
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kill me people. i scored really bad for my prelim2. sigh- i dont wish to be out of top10. but i think i will be out for this time. why must i fall sick that week? why must i feel down that week? it kills me. my prelim2, GONE! i regretted. i regretted sleeping early because i'm not feeling well and not studying. everything drop. muchmuch worse than what i expected. its really disappointing. turn back the time, i promise i will do well. next hurdle, nlevel. people, believe me, trust me. i'm gonna put in all my time and efforts on it. i promise to score really well. i WONT disappoint anyone anymore. never and ever again. i'm awaken by this horrible nightmare[results] its really scary. sigh-
all my A1s are like gone~ ):
pray, my coming prelim2 POA will score well. a A1 please.
Walk away, Loved. 7:24:00 PM `
每次都想呼喊你的名字。
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i'm dying. friday, yesh friday. his birthday. hahaha. i still need to buy cheryl's present and gillian's present. screams! where to get so much money? LOLS. school was so boring today. i'm only looking forward in getting back exams' paper. but none of the teachers is willing to give back. sigh- so shit. hahaha. i'm abit siao today. i dont know why. after school, went heartland with hweehan and erin. after awhile, erin jiu leave liao. so me and hweehan went KFC to eat. saw nanny meishan and jasline there. after that, the five of us went walkwalk around and jasline buy something for him. hahas. reach home around 4plus, took a nap till 7plus.
come back some day.
Walk away, Loved. 9:49:00 PM `
set me free.
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woke up around 9plus10 today. so tired. but still alright. around afternoon, went out with my parents and my niece. we went to hougang mall. walkwalk. buy things and went home around 6plus. had dinner at home. and going to bed soon.
my dearest boy,
you were my everything.
you were my everything.
Walk away, Loved. 10:04:00 PM `
a day out.
oh yeah, prelim2 ended yesterday. felt so damn freaking relax lah. argh~ went out today to buy things. LOLS. to buy present lah. but wont say what issit. want know? ask me personally. hahaha. meet up with erin and gaofei at around 2plus at orchard MRT station. as usual, they are late. arghhh~ LOLS. and something very weird/funny happened today. while i was waiting for them,
firstly a lady approached me.
she told me what she's from a modelling whatever shit.
ask me to leave down me name and number.
and after she said finish,
i replied 'errr, i'm only 16.'
she was like 'huh? you 16?'
i replied 'yah~'
then she walked away. LOLS.
after she walk away, a guy approached.
he wants me to help him with a survey regarding work, and i agree.
and when i told him i'm 16, he's also shocked.
after the survey, the guy ask 'so you taking nlevel this year?'
[its one the question in the survey]
and i say 'yah'.
then he said 'you dont look like 16'.
so i ask 'how old i look like',
he said: '17/18.'
-.- i was thinking. am i that old? LOLS.
around 10mins later, they reached. so we walk to wisma, then taka. bought what i want to buy. LOLS. then meet up with jose. went cine to eat KFC. around 4plus, nanny came. anyway, we bought 'THE BREAK UP' movie tickets. it start at 520pm. so we decide to go heeren to walkwalk. then when back cine to watch movie. afterall, the movie is alright. but its very sad. i almost cried while watching. arghhhh~ LOLS. the movie ended around 7plus. nanny went to look for her friends. so the four of us, walk to PS. walkwalk around. then went have dinner. but i didnt eat. cause its damn expensive. around 9plus10pm jiu go home lerh.
i really do miss you.
Walk away, Loved. 11:05:00 PM `
no longer.
am i asking for too much? am i? whats all these? do i deserve them? i just wish for something better. just abit more. issit too much? sigh- i feel like crying. really. i'm dying. whatever shit. meizhen, why are you feeling this way? cant you think of the bright side of life? mayb mayb mayb~ ):
had chinese paper2. quite alright bah. hope to score well.
anyway, i saw LIN XIANG PING at heartland mall today. she look so damn dolly. she's so pretty lah! wheets! one word for her, BEAUTIFUL!
no more mood to blog on.
Walk away, Loved. 9:17:00 PM `
i dont want to fall asleep.
today had prelim2 maths paper2 and geography. damn fcuk lah can. i'm gonna fail my maths paper2 man. 10marks dont know how to do! whatthefcuk can. dead lah. my A1! screams! wanting to get a 30/40 also difficult lah. hais. geography, confirm fail. hahas. i dont mind. XD SS fail, geography pass also no use right? but i know i wont pass lah. if pass is a miracle man. after geography, theres chinese listening compre. a few question not very sure. arhhhhhh~ i want full marks! ): whatthehell am i doing? seems so restless and cant even concentrate. fcuk man. die lah~
cant i just stop coughing? sigh-
tomorrow's paper chinese paper2.
hope and pray i will do well. (:
Walk away, Loved. 9:23:00 PM `
why am i so weak?
i'm dying. my illness is killing me. i cant study at all. cough and cough and cough. running nose! argh~ sore throat! i want sweets! who can buy for me?! ):
today had prelim2 english paper2 and maths paper1. english's passage was do-able. but my summary, i dont know what i'm writing lah. sigh- but nevermind. i just hope that i pass. well, as for maths paper1. no doubt, its quite easy. (: cause its somehow a paper share between the NA and NT. hahas. hope i can score above 50marks bah. i'm freezing inside the AVA room. and i keep coughing and coughing. hais. after the two paper, around 1210pm. had a short geography section with tty and sec4F. stupid tty lah. he make me damn malu can. he ask me one question, cant really remember is what. but its on terracing. and he goes, is it correct meizhen, meizhen is it correct. he continue asking for afew times. and i just say, yah, correct. then my whole face turn red. everyone was looking at me. so pai sei. XD then he said i'm wrong. ): make me so malu~ arhhhhhh~ after that, went heartland with nanny erin hweehan and karmen. went to eat and slack at mac until around 3pm jiu go home lerh. reach home, took a nap till 8pm. hahaha. i'm still tired. XD
tomorrow's paper, maths paper2 and geography. -.-
Walk away, Loved. 8:54:00 PM `
i miss you so.
i miss you boy. i really do. i dont know why. i cant concentrate on my studies at all. i think of you every now and then. i wish you were here with me. so much so much. how have you been? is life alright for you? i hope so. do you miss me? just for awhile, wishing that i'm there? sigh-
went to school as usual today. had prelim2 socialstudies paper. no doubt, i know i'm gonna fail. imagine lah, i use only one piece of paper for both sectionA&B. so how do you expect me to pass? LOLS. okae, i dont put high hopes on my humans anyway. after the paper, its only 930am. like so damn early can. stay in school with cassandra to do some POA h/w. at the same time, waiting for nanny and erin they all. they having their POA and amaths paper. amaths until 1215pm, and POA until 115pm. after that, went heartland with nanny erin and hweehan. hweehan went home after that, me and erin went to nanny's house. cause she wants me to help her dye her hair black. hahas. we left her house around 5plus cause we watching some VCDs. XD
tomorrow is english paper2 and maths paper1. wonder if i will do well? sigh-
Walk away, Loved. 9:09:00 PM `
saturday-fireworks. sunday-boredment.
i'm back. hahas. yesterday night reach home around 12plus. lets talk about yesterday then. meet up with peixuan, huimin, jolin, reagan and kokchong at city hall MRT at 7plus. i was standing there for 20mins or so like a idoit waiting for them can. they took so long lah. kinda pissed lah. but its alright. next, we walk to marina square. its so damn packed. cannot walk properly want lor. argh~ but never regret going there lah. we went up to the foodcourt. wanting to have dinner. but no place to sit lah. we waited until 830pm then got place to sit. damn pissed. and the place we sit, can see the fireworks clearly. its so damn nice can. <3
after that, around 11plus jiu go home liao.
today, wake up around 11plus. around 2pm, went out with my parents and my niece to singapore post. bought two shirt from THIS FASHION. hahas. and now i'm back home, having dinner soon! (:
Walk away, Loved. 7:32:00 PM `
some quiz to entertain myself. LOLS.
| You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One! |
 You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around. |
Do You Need a Man?
| Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time! |
 This may be hard for you to swallow, but you and your guy might not last At least not forever. He's somewhere between Mr. Right... and Mr. Right Now No doubt your guy is a great catch - and generally good to you The odds are, however, that someone better is out there! |
How Long Will Your Relationship Last?
| Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge |
 You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel |
Are You a Challenge?
| What Guys Think of Your Medium Straight Hair... |
 Smart, optimistic, easy going. You're the thinking man's ideal woman - bright, funny, and no drama. |
What Do Guys Think Of Your Hair?
| You Are a Sensitive Kisser |
 For you, kissing is a way to connect And you need lot of care, attention, and privacy It may take you a while to kiss someone... But when you do, it's total fireworks |
What's Your Kissing Style?
| You Are a Friendly Ex |
 While the guys you've dated haven't been perfect, you've kept most as friends In fact, one or two of your exes may be your best friends - after all, they know you best And though your mature attitude is awesome, make sure nothing gets too weird Or else you could lose these friendships, simply because your exes' new women think you're *too* friendly |
What Kind of Ex Are You?
| You Are A Professional Girlfriend! |
 You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy. |
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
| Men See You As Desirable |
 Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily |
Walk away, Loved. 4:15:00 PM `
school was indeed boring.
went to school today. miss liza was in bad mood. and argh~ it so spoilt my mood lah. nanny they all got back their olevel chinese results today. nanny A1, erin A2, hweehan B3, mingyi B3, meieng B3, wudi A1, menghan A2, gaofei and linyi, dont know. cause they didnt come today. wudi, nanny and erin very happy lah. but i know the rest damn disappointed. cheer up people, you all still got another chance right? (: meieng almost cried lah, so scary. sigh- life is just so cruel. theres a chinese test after school today, so shit can. my brain like not functioning properly. LOLS. hope i can score well lah. (: after that, around 2plus3pm went heartland with hweehan and xumin, erin and nanny pang sei me lah. so sad can. sigh- went heartland to eat KFC. (: hahas. cheesefries rocks can. XD around 4pm jiu go home lerh.
i'm having a sore throat now.
faint-
my illness like just recover can. ):
Walk away, Loved. 10:10:00 PM `
boredment-
nice? i'm too bored. so i decide to take photos and edit them. hahas.
i'm so bored. i dont know how to do my english h/w. can anyone help? argh~ i'm prepared for death lah. english so lousy. and my POA h/w, i havent even do a single question. by the way, is there geography lesson tomorrow after school? boredment- andandand his birthday is like 2weeks away, how?! what should i get for him? he doesnt seems interested to receive any present also. how?! sigh- someone save me!
Walk away, Loved. 7:54:00 PM `
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
is the pic nice? hahas. i edit derh. <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! argh~ i'm so lame. because i'm damn bored. LOLS. i stay at home for the whole day can. but i wake up around 1pm today. too tired lerh. tomorrow gonna stay at home again bah. mayb be a goodgurl and finish up my POA h/w yeah? hahas. boredment. oh yah, today is also queenie's birthday. i'm sorry gurl, didnt celebrate with you. but anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEENIE! hugs-
Walk away, Loved. 10:18:00 PM `
cross-country-twin's birthday celebration.
8AUGUST2006
lets update about what i did yesterday. woke at around 530am, the usual time. meet up with erin at her house there derh bus stop around 655am. then we walk to serangoon MRT station to meet up with karmen and nanny. we are almost late for the stupid cross-country thingy. its so boliao can. make us walk on grass, its so gross. yucks- make my whole body so damn itchy lah. it sucks can. hate it so much. and we got dismiss around 11plus.
reach home around 1230pm. bath and meet up with twin around 120pm at serangoon MRT. meet up with with nanny, jmo, joopeng, bentan, robin, xiangyu, gilbert in the MRT and we headed for cine. meet up with jose at kbox there. and the kbox session start. enjoyed ourselves i think. hahas. around 7pm, gaofei and linyi, karmen and xujun joined us. we left and headed to PS swensens[correct spelling?] for dinner. hahas. erin's treat. the cost was $189. cheaper than what we expected. (: i'm quite full after that. we bought a cake for erin before hand, a mango cake. hahas. she love mango cake. (: and she look happy. hugs twin! then we went arcade, they play, i'm damn sians and tired. hahas. around 11pm jiu go home liao. i hope my twin enjoyed herself yesterday.
i'm not that important, right?
Walk away, Loved. 4:12:00 PM `
(:
will be home late today. going to celebrate my twin's birthday! (: dont know have time to post anot. hahas. tkcares people. miss me yeah? <3>
Walk away, Loved. 6:15:00 AM `
twintwin outing! XD
well, today is a sunday. LOLS. i'm so lame. wake up around 10am today. i still wish to get some sleep. but i cant get back to sleep. so shit can. argh- meet up with my twin at orchard MRT station around 130pm. she was like 10mins late. hahas. but its alright. cause her family celebrating her birthday with her. i'm sure she's damn excited about her birthday. she's way too generous today.
well, we went fareast to shop first. bought her bag. its damn nice can. i wish i have the money lah. sigh- nevermind. we walkwalkwalk, shopshopshop. she bought a hello kitty wallet for me, it cost $25. arent she great?! i wanted to change a wallet for so long. but didnt have the money. LOLS. she bought a mickey mouse purse for xujun also. it cost $18. hahas. quite nice also. but i prefer hello kitty! XD thanks my twin, you're the best lah. hugs- oh yah, i saw cheryl phua and her mum at fareast. next, we walk to wisma walk around. and heeren and blahblahblah. lastly, we went PS. went KFC to eat. and walkwalk around, and bought a top at $34.65. nicenice lah. gonna wear on tuesday. on my twintwin birthday.
and we went home around 8plus. have a great day with her. i love her so much can. XD
Walk away, Loved. 10:03:00 PM `
isnt it?
life is never fair, isnt it? something that you yearn for so much just
i just wonder,
will he love me again?
will he love me again?
Walk away, Loved. 10:17:00 PM `
prelim2 english and chinese paper1.
today had prelim2 english and chinese paper1. english paper1 was quite alright. but chinese paer1 was easier. hahas. so hope that i will score well for both. (: after exams, went compass point with xujun, karmen and hoki. went there for lunch. but i didnt eat. LOLS. reached home around 3plus. took a nap around 6plus till 8plus. hahas. tomorrow theres POA lesson, 1pm-3pm. -.- why afternoon? like this cannot go out liao. XD
be a little fair to me.
you know i love you still.
Walk away, Loved. 9:20:00 PM `
prelim2 is starting tomorrow!
i'm tired. tomorrow gonna have english paper1 and chinese paper1. how? sigh- i dont think i'm that prepared lah. just pray that the questions would be easy. hahas. i'm lame. i know. but theres nothing more i can do. just so feel like dying. today, went to school as usual. after school, remedial was cancelled. stay in school with erin, nanny and karmen. around 4plus, went heartland. and erin pei me go eat KFC. around 540pm, walk back to school. cause i'm having POA lesson. thanks erin for pei-ing me. (: and POA lesson ended around 8plus. and guess what, i saw him while walking out of gate. so shocked lah. but he didnt see me. cause he walking a distance infront of me. hahas. its so odd to see him at this kind of time. XD and i went home after that.
will things turn out better?
will you need me forever?
Walk away, Loved. 9:21:00 PM `
i'm feeling stressed up.
screams! theres alot of POA questions i cant do! i dont understand the questions! can anyone save me?! ): cries~
imissyouso.
Walk away, Loved. 9:20:00 PM `
boring day.
went to school today as usual. today, after school, i have no remedial/extra lesson/self-study. i should be like happy right? LOLS. i am. but erin they all all have! and its like only us[the 4 olevel POA students] dont need. cause our session is on saturday. argh- and around 2plus, after eating my lunch, me jiu go home liao. like so damn early can. LOLS. so shit lah. reached home around 3pm. went to take a nap around 4plus till 6plus. and i'm going to do some POA homeworks now. she wants it by tomorrow! -.- screams~
i need you here,
by my side,
always.
i love you,
my dearest boy.
Walk away, Loved. 10:00:00 PM `
Joanne Lum Mei Zhen. ♥
